Change Is Gonna Come

Ok... So, I came to an idea recently - I need to clean my life out of all negativity. No more dark-&-twisty-feeling old me. Time has come to turn new leaf, and open a new chapter in my life. First of all I need to sort out all stuff, and figure out what things were pulling me down and just stay away from them. It`s more easy said than done, but it`s a start. It`s time to renew and reinvent myself!

What that change consists of? Well... First of all I need to set some kind of order in all this chaos of my life. Do more things that makes me - me! It`s kinda tiring behaving by rules set by others. I need my own rules. Stop being ashamed of myself. That`s who I am, and that`s it. I like many things others don`t, and it`s ok. That is what makes me unique, and stand out of the crowd. Not many people can say that. 

So... back to the plan. I need to spend more time with people I like. I need to find that time, and make it counts. It`s been enough standing aside, watching the days passing by. So far it feels like my life has been one incredibly long rainy day. It`s time for the sky to clears, and let the sunshine in! (cliche I know, but still...)   The fact is that I really like rainy days, but the best rains are ones with the sun rays coming through the rainy sky that feels magical, musical like... You know, when you just want to burst into a song without any good reason. It sounds like a Disney movie, but hey! 

I need to improve my writing skills. Always wanted to write a novel, but never had time... There is it again - time... The lack of it is really irritating, but I guess if you want you can find a way to use it to make incredible things even if it`s only few minutes now and than. 

The plan for this summer is to get away somewhere. Destination unknown. I just need a brake from all this reality happening all around me. Just get on the bus leading into an adventure. I think that is what I miss most - the adventure, the great unknown... It would be really cool if I could pull out to go to one of those summer festivals where Nightwish will play this summer. That`s a long stretch, but worth a shot. With or without company, I should go. 

And in the mean time... Well there`s this girl... But more about it some other time...